someone told me I'm too caught up in the past.. cough Ben.. when in reality it's just something that pops up.... but truly... fed up with the past now that I look at it. myspace = past... after the new year.. maybe deleting it. probably WILL Be deleting it.
now that I look at the past.... yeah. no one ever keeps me in contact. if they're an important contact they have my phone number, spare time to IM me, spare time to add me on facebook. soo.. BOO you people on myspace using me to be your EXTRA friendspace to make you feel you have a whole bunch of friends!
ok bye bye. bestie comes back tomorrow. oh I'm also trying to delete friends on facebook. kinda harder. HA!
in my opinion things I don't think looks cute/classy. sad thing I fell to some of this.
Swearing. so not cute or classy. read a 12yo blog about crap and she already had the urge to say the f word... and by using it.. she used it against her parents.. so not respectful. I think swearing is a no no NOW, gar! I got caught up looking so coool.. in reality.. so not. Btw, saying the nword does not make you look gangster in a fight too... "you got a problem ...." yeah not cool.
I am aware I do cuss at times... espcially when refs blow their whistle and make a bad call against my dubs, but i'm trying to STOP!!!! ;x
BbbbbRAggING!!! about doing something "bad" uh huh.. seriously. I remember a weekend, I get greeted by my friend... and then she goes I did somethign bad... giggle. lalala.. tlaking about drunk or high stuff. yeah not classy. hard to explain. YES!!! I am aware of the fact, I;ve been guilty of this. Yep... xmas sophomore year... someone put a little too much Bacardi in my system... and in result.. i looked amazingly stupid in front of friends and such. I also got a lesson from an older girl telling me that's stupid and drinking is bad... however you should do drugs. uh noooo.... seriously.. I look back. I had bad influences.
colored contacts. FAKE!!! I wanted colored contacts, what the point.. I don't need glasses. So yeah. and yes I am aware makeup can add the same effect right? However.. I just enjoy blending and putting the NEUTRAL colors on my lids... and got to love eyeliner. :][: this shall make my eyes look even better, than actually going through the hassle of colored contacts.
whatelse.... acting spoiled. sorry no. not cute.
acting like the shiznitt.. not cute at all... well unless your that cute girl walking down the street and strutting in confidence thats cute. But by me acting the shiznitt.......... uhmm... dogging a girl. I was shopping the other day and found myself looking through shoes in circles and passed the same girl and everytimeI passed her she's stop her conversation and look at me weird and stuff. She must've been hating on my babyphat jacket, everyone's jealous of that.. :][: hah!
theres probably more. but too tired. off to read .
Swearing. so not cute or classy. read a 12yo blog about crap and she already had the urge to say the f word... and by using it.. she used it against her parents.. so not respectful. I think swearing is a no no NOW, gar! I got caught up looking so coool.. in reality.. so not. Btw, saying the nword does not make you look gangster in a fight too... "you got a problem ...." yeah not cool.
I am aware I do cuss at times... espcially when refs blow their whistle and make a bad call against my dubs, but i'm trying to STOP!!!! ;x
BbbbbRAggING!!! about doing something "bad" uh huh.. seriously. I remember a weekend, I get greeted by my friend... and then she goes I did somethign bad... giggle. lalala.. tlaking about drunk or high stuff. yeah not classy. hard to explain. YES!!! I am aware of the fact, I;ve been guilty of this. Yep... xmas sophomore year... someone put a little too much Bacardi in my system... and in result.. i looked amazingly stupid in front of friends and such. I also got a lesson from an older girl telling me that's stupid and drinking is bad... however you should do drugs. uh noooo.... seriously.. I look back. I had bad influences.
colored contacts. FAKE!!! I wanted colored contacts, what the point.. I don't need glasses. So yeah. and yes I am aware makeup can add the same effect right? However.. I just enjoy blending and putting the NEUTRAL colors on my lids... and got to love eyeliner. :][: this shall make my eyes look even better, than actually going through the hassle of colored contacts.
whatelse.... acting spoiled. sorry no. not cute.
acting like the shiznitt.. not cute at all... well unless your that cute girl walking down the street and strutting in confidence thats cute. But by me acting the shiznitt.......... uhmm... dogging a girl. I was shopping the other day and found myself looking through shoes in circles and passed the same girl and everytimeI passed her she's stop her conversation and look at me weird and stuff. She must've been hating on my babyphat jacket, everyone's jealous of that.. :][: hah!
theres probably more. but too tired. off to read .
confused atm.
emotions. guys. lovers. life.
too caught up in the past. too caught up in materialistic thing. too caught up on everything. living was never a key to my life... even though I always tried to live life to the fullest.. never do.
pssst...
sometimes I wish I can runaway to soCal and live with my lola, but the bay area is holding me put. even though i never feel ehh... loved.
emotions. guys. lovers. life.
too caught up in the past. too caught up in materialistic thing. too caught up on everything. living was never a key to my life... even though I always tried to live life to the fullest.. never do.
pssst...
sometimes I wish I can runaway to soCal and live with my lola, but the bay area is holding me put. even though i never feel ehh... loved.
of procrastinating on your final paper. I am currently working on mine, because I suck at writing so bad. BOO!!
anyways. holidays are here. I just spent my daytime, after my devastating final, helping decorate mi casa with Christmas lights. Yes... I had trouble setting the little drummer boy's drums and other stuff too, but whatever. Our house is kinda bare, but who cares... I hope our train works still , because ITS AWESOME!!!! haha... that was favorite piece, well aside from happy feet and Santa. ha.
ok.. I looked at my books, and it's a pain. ahhahhahaha. Oh well.. who cares, the cost of education is a bitch, but it's worth it.. hopefully.
okkk.... star gazing friday? saturday? no clue.. one of those days. I can't wait til the 29TH! :D oh and the 20TH because bestie comes home from Hawaii..
also, cutting back on food and soda. HAH! :)
anyways. holidays are here. I just spent my daytime, after my devastating final, helping decorate mi casa with Christmas lights. Yes... I had trouble setting the little drummer boy's drums and other stuff too, but whatever. Our house is kinda bare, but who cares... I hope our train works still , because ITS AWESOME!!!! haha... that was favorite piece, well aside from happy feet and Santa. ha.
ok.. I looked at my books, and it's a pain. ahhahhahaha. Oh well.. who cares, the cost of education is a bitch, but it's worth it.. hopefully.
okkk.... star gazing friday? saturday? no clue.. one of those days. I can't wait til the 29TH! :D oh and the 20TH because bestie comes home from Hawaii..
also, cutting back on food and soda. HAH! :)
New camera. New Santa Hat. Lovely. My sister is looking for a cotton candy machine, I think I'm liking this holidays. :) Well.. how about 10 win streak for the Warriors. :D
Registered for classes. Bitchassness. haah. No not really.
Math51 TRF 12-1:25PM
Engl100 MW 10-11:50AM F 10-10:50AM
Dance3a TR 10-11:20AM
Psyc1 MW 8-9:50 AM F 8-8:50AM
Friday waits... seems like they're going to be a little... yknow.
Anyways.. I haven't seen Ben since Sunday, and when I did.. he sort of ran away from me. :(
Registered for classes. Bitchassness. haah. No not really.
Math51 TRF 12-1:25PM
Engl100 MW 10-11:50AM F 10-10:50AM
Dance3a TR 10-11:20AM
Psyc1 MW 8-9:50 AM F 8-8:50AM
Friday waits... seems like they're going to be a little... yknow.
Anyways.. I haven't seen Ben since Sunday, and when I did.. he sort of ran away from me. :(